I dont fear making the mistakes again. Cause I know that the hurt Ive felt the past 6 weeks have been hell. I can't imagine how he felt off and on the past three years. Even if he and I never work out, I could never ever do that again. To anyone.

I think what I fear now is dealing with my past while in childhood for the most part. And that because of all the stuff I dealt him, that he may never be able to forgive and trust me again. Those two things.

As for the GF. Ive heard enough if her history and its not pretty. And maybe thats why I don't feel like Im competing? Idk. Like I said. I know I am the better option. I just need to start believing it within ME now.

M:43/ H:39
T:12/ M:9
S8, D15
M affair(one night): 2/09
M EA: 2/12-7/12
D:6/7/12
H: GF since 7/24/12

God,Family, and the Green Bay Packers. - Vince Lombardi