I really feel like Im getting beat up tonight. Lol I didnt want the divorce KD. I just didnt take the time to make my marriage good. I was a very selfish person then. I guess I still am to a point because I do love my XH with all my heart and I would like him to be with me.
But I also know that I need to fix myself before that can ever happen. And then, I realize that it may not happen in the end. But I can still hope for a future.
I have NCd for the most part two days, with the exception of the small bit regarding our son. I realize two days isnt the 6 weeks we have been apart. I am trying. Hard. Yesterday and today, I think have probably been the easiest thus far.
Im giving it my best. Honestly. I am. I want to be healthy. I want a healthy relationship, whether or not that is with XH Im not sure. Yes. In the end, he is the person that I still want to spend the rest of my life with. Everyone here on this forum wants that in the end. Otherwise they wouldnt be here.
I dont see me giving up any time soon on me. On us. On our future. Yes. He has a GF. But that still doesnt make her the better option in the end.
M:43/ H:39 T:12/ M:9 S8, D15 M affair(one night): 2/09 M EA: 2/12-7/12 D:6/7/12 H: GF since 7/24/12
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