gotta share today. I was feeling really down and H asked me, what's wrong? is it me? did I do something?
me: no, no, it's me.
he continued to insist and I blamed it on the heat.
Later I text him, I'm sorry. I'm trying not to project my frustrations (something I used to do a lot) by being quiet. Sometimes I don't even know why I feel this way. I'm learning that before I would blame others when it had nothing to do with anyone. thank you for being you.
H: sometimes I worry that your holding frustrations against me. that's why I ask.
me: don't worry about that. I really am trying to focus on myself and the kids. I'm sorry that I deliberately did and said things to hurt you. I just want to move on.
H: I understand. and believe me when I say that I don't care about you saying anything to hurt me. I just saw u little down this morning and I just wanted to know.
How did I do?? I was sad about this too. I think I'm seriously accepting my sitch now.
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017