I think because I was feeling dishonest with how I approached our relationship. I was feeling like I "oversold" myself from the beginning, especially our first date. (Which lasted 17 hours btw!)
On our first date we played a question game - a way to get to know one another. I found myself giving answers that I thought he wanted to hear not always the whole truth. I really wanted him to like me and thought he'd like the me I 'could' be better than the real me.
I know that the real me isn't who/what I was the past two years either. Somewhere in there the real me existed...Funny, he says he lost himself in our marriage. I guess I did too...
I call it a 'fog' because I couldn't see any of the good stuff anymore. Only the negative and now HE can only see the negative, the risks...
Right now we're in a complete role-reversal from where we were 8 months ago - when I felt like I couldn't trust what he was saying and he could only see the potential of our future. Maybe another couple of weeks/months and we'll be on the same wavelength!
