Stay NC and enjoy your session. Go in there and unload on your IC. You have to get your money's worth, otherwise why go IMHO...LoL
Sup - its funny because when I go in there, he will ask how my week was. And I have for the past couple weeks told him he was going to kick my butt. (because he wants me to NC as well) He did say that I have been doing "better" than what I was in the beginning, but......
I love to learn more about my past, and how it connects to the crap that Ive put my H in. When I learn, I make changes and make myself a better person. My Mom put us kids through alot of stuff when we were small. I have never forgiven her, and I am working on that process now. I am also working on the process of forgiving myself. And not feel so shamed. As Carnac told me last week - I just have to do it. Sometimes I think Im almost to that point, but then I think of the hurt and shame that I placed on my hubs, and I go back to not feeling so good about it all. Ill get there when Im stronger. And I feel like Im getting there daily.
M:43/ H:39 T:12/ M:9 S8, D15 M affair(one night): 2/09 M EA: 2/12-7/12 D:6/7/12 H: GF since 7/24/12
God,Family, and the Green Bay Packers. - Vince Lombardi
