So, I'm pretty sure they are seeing each other. When asked if he would want to spend any time this holiday weekend with our son he avoided answering it directly. Very evasive.
I really hate this.
I met with my Psychiatrist for a med check. I am adding an additional AD med to reduce anxiety and obsessing. I hope this will help the anxiety that gets overwhelming and pull me further out of my depression. Maybe even stop obsessing about what H and OW may be doing. I also found a new MC, definitely pro-commitment/marriage. I've been emailing her and I'm hopeful. Just have to discuss with H and get it scheduled. The guy were are seeing now is talking and rehashing, not working toward solutions. It's keeping the tension.
Last thing I'm really sad about this Friday. 16 years ***SIGH***. Why don't we have do overs in real life. I would be on meds as soon as I stopped breastfeeding. Happy mommy and happy wife and happy me. Hindsight......
lillystillinlove M:43 H:49 T:17 M:16 S:6 Bomb: 1/27/12 EA+ with close married family friend / ILYBINILWY H moved out 7/27/12 H is Extremely angry, stressed and unable to forgive
