Lol Starsky! Should have been more clear... It was post-call that inebriation took effect! After we'd chatted for about half an hour and I knew the direction and tone of the conversation, I poured myself a drink. Didn't get to "tipsy" until after I'd hung up the phone and started journaling.
I know myself well enough to know that alcohol + long talks with W = a bad end to the conversation. So my preparation for the call involved writing out a list of reminders (alluded to in an earlier post) and preparing to gauge the temperature of the call and my readiness to bring up the "OM Talk"...
Clearly I wasn't ready last night, as I was a bundle of nerves before she called... once I felt the conversation was going in a "normal" direction, and I heard the sadness creeping into her voice toward the end, I decided to put off the conversation for another time... Plus, I'd like to be the one to initiate that talk, not wait for her to have to contact me for something else...
I DO appreciate you looking out for me, and would certainly accept the 2x4 had I decided alcohol was a good way to help me deal with a potentially life-changing conversation!
