I dont think that I have wavered myself too much from when I met my H - except with the fact that I never would have thought to have had a one night, and then the EA. Ever. I am still the same person, minus the confidence that I once felt 5 weeks ago. I am not the same broken person as I was then - so Im guessing I AM getting stronger.
In my heart, I know one day we will be together again. Its the way he does look at me. Its the way that he hugs me. Carasses my back while in the embrace as he did last night. Its the fact that he knows, me being that close, that I will probably kiss his right side of his neck. Just a small peck. Ive done it the past three times we've embraced. Im sure he knows I will do it again if I am ever to embrace him again.
Its there. And when I feel stronger, and gain that confidence 100%, when my mind is healthier - there isnt anything that will hold me back because anything is possible. Hopefully at that time he will see me as the person that I was before all this crap started with the affairs. But Better.
This is what my heart and mind are sharing with me this afternoon. And I just wanted you to know.
M:43/ H:39 T:12/ M:9 S8, D15 M affair(one night): 2/09 M EA: 2/12-7/12 D:6/7/12 H: GF since 7/24/12
God,Family, and the Green Bay Packers. - Vince Lombardi
