Well as I alluded to in my last, whiskey soaked post, last night's call was not at all what I feared it would be... and I must say I'm 95% proud of myself for how I handled the entirety of the call.
Because of my inebriated state, I'm glad I didn't try to get into "the talk" last night, and now, sitting in the wake of yet another pleasant conversation, I can begin to focus on an action plan.
I don't think going into much more detail than I did above will do much good here, as I hit all the major points there. But I do want to mention that as the conversation started to die down and I began getting off the phone, I heard her start to cry and get generally quite upset. Normally, this sends me right into "What's Wrong. How can I help." mode and before I know it, I'm prying information out of her like I'm pulling teeth...
This time though, I simply stated "It was nice talking to you W. Everything okay?" knowing she'd reply "I'll always be okay" as she always does the first time I ask. She did, and I left it at that, telling her goodnight.
I woke up this morning to another email from W, with another song attached, telling me that in the midst of her "negative ranting" last night, she'd forgot to tell me she was going to see this band and that she's sure that she'd have a ton of emotions going on in her brain and her heart... but she knows she'll "be okay. Always have been, always will be". She ended with "take this as you will, and interpret the he/she lyrics as you see fit". The song is called "Breakeven" by the Script.
Might start a new thread to play the interpretation game, just for fun.
I haven't responded to the email, and I'm not sure I will. There are just too many ways to interpret the song, ranging wildly from hopeful to destructive... And I'm not dying to go down that road via email with her... I wonder if I should wait and respond that there are too many ways to interpret the song...
