Make a template you can send out each time. "I'll let you know when a bonus is coming."

Don't let this spin you, which is sounds like you're doing. I recognize it as I do it, too.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss