We've been here before and survived

[LongRoad06]

Yesterday I was able to get a telephone coaching session in. Man, what a relief. She essentially tole me my sitch is as good as it can be at the moment. H thanked me profusely for a gift I gave him after our huge fight (I had already bought it just wasn't planning n giving it to him yet) and because I apologized, and usually have a hard time doing so and admitting wrong doing, it was a huge step in the rig direction for both of us. He had called me Sunday to talk about financial stuff, we talked about that and then, on his own, he opened up about his day/weekend. At the end, without expecting it, as I was hanging up he said 'I love you' and I wasn't expecting it.

Yesterday we spoke later that evening right before I was headed to bed. It was a good talk. I told him I had a new counselor and told him, at the highest level, some of what we went over, then told him it was suggested we don't talk about our relationship as I have some things I need to work on before we can. Changed the subject and he started randomly talking about his weekend. I didn't ask about his plans for Labor Day, he didn't ask about mine but already knows what I'll probably do anyhow. We ended it on a high note and hung up. I will contact him here and there, but he isn't a huge talkers phone conversationalist so I don't plan on contacting him that much.

It is hope that, in time I can become a better person and fix what was going wrong with me. I had turned in to a person that I didn't like any more, so I am glad to have some help in that area now. I am gone from helmet 17 more days so I have some more time to work on myself before I go home. I am happy for that time. I actually think that I will continue coaching sessions for a while, as I haven't connected well with a counselor like I did with the DB coach on the first go rounds. Such a positive outlook and a stay together mentality versus a 'how can I help you move on' scenario. Love it and wish I had done this a long time ago.