Bklyn Still Here P2

[25yearsmlc]

2 things,

I DO hear you about feelings. It's like someone who says "don't cry"...

I'm crying b/c I'm sad/frustrated or whatever. Don't tell me not to FEEL that...sheesh. Isn't right, isn't wrong. I get it.

2nd, boy I really do hear you about the whole woman's movement, of which I was a part.

I got pregnant in law school (married for 5 years at the time). I had NO IDEA I might actually love being a mother

AND that it might become more important to me than my job.

I literally never thought about that until it happened.

And the entourage thing kills me. Remember The Cosby show? A doctor/lawyer team like my h and me?

Except my h was not home for about 5 years...off and on (seriously, he worked 80+ hours, consistently and 6 days a week, often 7. I recall him having zero days off for 43 days straight.

He'd get home LATE and fall asleep within minutes. Don't know how we had other kids....

My kids would get chicken pox WHILE I was in trial....and there was no back up for me. No family around and no money at that time (h was a resident, not a staff physician)

and the more HE worked, the more I wanted to sah. And that made him feel like working/earning more which meant being home LESS

and that made me want to be home more...and so on.

Okay let's be fair to ourselves. Imagine you have an uber cool nanny AND a housekeeper on a daily basis, who SOMETIMES helps you cook when you are not in the mood. And the nanny can also shop for you.

Now can you have it all? (well, we can have a lot more!)

But I don't have a full time nanny or daily housekeeper...or anyone "assisting"

so I do what I can and say, to heck w/the rest.

when we win the lottery THEN we can write that novel...