The fight continues, but is for my own. I love my W, that is the truth and I love her enough to let her go. I once told her that my love for her was enormous to the point of not seeing her suffer by my side, and now I have come to the point of that.
I also promised her that I would never lose sight of her, and will always be there for her. I am still keeping this promise, I will never lose sight of her, that is why I have put her and my family on the Lord's hands. I will continue seeking for the Lord's presence and by that I will be in sight of my family.
People, the road is full of rocks, but I am not driving anymore. The Lord is in charge, and I am willing to follow him, he knows what is best.
To all of you fighting to keep your relationship with your spouse, do not give up hope. Just remember that at the end of the tunnel there is always light. For me is a new chapter in my life, without my W and SS13, but I have learned that my happiness dependens on the relationship I build with the Lord. It may sound "cheesy" and hard to believe, but our happines depends on us, not on the people you love.
I have defeated many adversities in my life, growing without my real parents, extreme poverty, growing in a place of violence and drugs where being a "school boy" is always a bad thing. I was blessed by the most awesome people I could imagine, my Ama and Apa, whom I love dearly. They are my grandparents and thanks to them I am who I am right now.
I also want to thank my WIFE because after the job my Ama and Apa did with me, she took me into her family and made it my own. She help me reshape my self from a boy to a man. Thanks Reinita, and all my blessing are out to you.
I want to say I have fully forgiven her, but it will be a lie because my heart still hurts and longs for her presence. This does not mean I have not accepted that she is no longer with me, and as time progresses my acceptance that she is living her won life grows.
I once said: " I want a better me, I am a better man, will continue to grow to be that man" , with this I now understand that I am being blessed with time to do just that.
