Well im smiling this afternoon mainly b/c I've been more productive today than I have been in quite a while at work. I still read too much on here, and spent too much time worrying about/thinking about her and our situation, but im happy because its less. I know its a long way from a good thing and I still need to be LOTS more productive at work, but I realized last week that I was falling into a bit of depression and actually recognized it by thinking that everything that needed to be done at my office seemed overwhelming and I didnt know how i would ever finish any of it.
The truth is i've been doing this for year and its no worse now than at any other time so I finally made myself start and once I got going I was able to check quite a few things off of my list as well as to get the ball rolling on some other things which in the long run will force me to deal with them again very soon so I can't stall on them. All in all Im glad to have moved a little more forward today, I wish I knew what the future held.....heck maybe I don't cause it might be a lot less interesting if we knew the ending. If your reading this try and smile with me.
