A New Path - I just left my wife

[tpc1977]

It's ner birthday today. Yesterday she spent the afternoon til the late evening with the man she cheated on me with.

That day I took our youngest girl shopping for school. When we returned to the house my wife wasn't there. She called and told our daughter she would be home late. Then called again and said it would be much later. Our daughter had several friends coming over to stay the night. All of them were going to get ready together for school. Wife later phoned in a pizza for them. Then called and said it was going to be late before she got home.

I cleaned the house since it looked like it hadn't been touched in a while. I didn't want kids coming over to see it like that. My yard is a mess too. But I have to just get over it.

What I can't get over is the fact that after almost 15 years I am nothing to her. Her new life is above me and all we shared. I never show any emotions but happiness around my wife and kids when I see them. I try hard to be in good spirits all the time.

Talked to a lawyer Friday. I'm slowly going to get things in order for our legal separation and eventual divorce. I walked away from any ideas about God. But sometimes, out of habit, I ask for a sign to see if there is any chance we could be together. So far, if God exists, he's only shown me there isn't.