I am already GAL and going out, it's easy because I am 1600 miles away. The issue is - it is with guys. Groups of guys yet but guys none the less. He hates that. I stopped telling him who I was with because it bothered him such. I feel horrible about it but it kept us from arguing and him from getting hurt about 'some other guy' having fun. There are two other females in school with me. Both are cheating on their spouses. I've one friend I have constantly been going to see on weekends 2 hours away but that is it. I go home in a little over two weeks and from there have formulated a plan to go out more.

He called me last night to talk finances. Without me probing, he opened up about his day and such. At the end I ended the conversation first and said I had to go. He said ok, and hurried in an 'I love you' without me saying it first. I reciprocated and hung up.

Today I found out my deployment was canceled. I told him I was happy for it and he said why. I explained a I have learned that thinking away from home isn't as much fun as it seems, and being a female in the military is extremely hard. I want a family and relationship, and being gone so much in such a short period of time wasn't going to help what I wanted.

I told him if he wanted to talk about it to call me today after poker and we could talk, but if not that I understand and that was ok as well. I have my first coaching session this evening before he calls. I hope at if nothing else it can provide some insight as to what I can do to improve myself and possibly insight as to his actions as I am confused as hell.


Me- 29 H - 36
T - 5y M - 2y
D - 11 months
BD#1 June 2013
BD#2 H files 10/28/13
Retrouvaille Nov 13
BD #3 H Files 2nd time 4/22/14
Fires L 7 days later. No court dates set
Supposedly he's moving out?