You're right. I am thinking about what you said as far as making sure he is not afraid. It's not that I don't want him to see the kids often, it's that I don't want to see him often if he's not coming back. I would want to make the exchanges more formal. No morning breakfast. I'm not angry. I think I've passed that phase (although I do come back to it seldomly). So it's not as a form of revenge. I see it as a way to help me move on and heal. UGH! I hate this! I think I need to think more about what you wrote. Gimme a couple days.
And you're right, I am lovable but it's those ugly moments when i feel this way. Hate that too :P
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017
