the rope burned my fingers REALLY BADLY, which meant i was holding on tight.. i need to drop it so it stops burning
^^^ is the best thing for you and for all of us to notice - you put is so well, ng - brilliantly. we have to learn to recognize when that happens and let go and drop it as soon as we can, because we are only causing ourselves pain other wise.
and when we don't let go we are, i think in a similar fog as the WAS is - the pain stops us from being able to think straight and then we are running only on our emotions.
i've been reading about surrender and the peace that comes with it and it really does come with it. but i also found out that surrender needs to happen repeatedly for us - again and again, each time we pick up the rope.
you will find your way through this ng - you are really close to feeling your first encounter with surrender.
i'm already seeing how each day i have to re-surrender and am even starting to accept that
(((((((((( ))))))))))) hope you had a great weekend, sweet friend
zig
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"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
