a new perspective

[strongerthanever]

I'm going to start a new thread tomorrow, as I'm in a new place for sure. First some updating.

This week was bittersweet. Early Thursday morning we lost a 1 yr old little girl. Watching the patents mourn, scream, yell at God, sob on the hospital floor was hard. I had to see this sweet angel prepped for the morgue, and then undo everything when the parents suddenly returned with her siblings, wanting to say goodbye. I found myself in that room, with her now in a hospital gown, wrapped in a blanket, surrounded by her family and minister. That seriously did something to me. I didn't go home and sleep, I picked up my girls and held them all day. I didn't go back to work till 2 days later.

That poor mother. I send her so much love many times a day. I know she would jump into my sitch in a heartbeat if it meant having her sweet baby girl back. And here I have been, with so much to be grateful for, and ie had been acting like my life was over SIMPLY because someone decided they no longer wanted to be a part of it.

I'm so humbled God put me in that situation the other night. Life is so precious. I don't want to spend any of it being unappreciative or negative. If someone is in my life, I'm sure it isn't for me to judge or hate them. I can love someone just the way they are, not needing them to change. It's a great feeling. I have felt so much love and appreciation for my life these post few days that my eyes full with tears.

My interactions with my children have been so powerful and meaningful. I packed us up last night and we drove 2 hrs away to my friends farm. Fall is nearing and the weather is just beautiful. The views here in Colorado ate amazing this time of the year! I'm off to help with breakfast, then it's time to say good morning to some horsies.

Enjoy your last day of summer guys!

<3