I dont even know what to write tonight, but am feeling somewhat blue and I don't really even know why. I guess part of it would be b/c my W really just doesn't really like talking to me at all right now and since my S11 has football every Saturday we're around one another every Saturday and she seems to want to make it awkward. The little bit she did talk tonight was about needing to have brakes put on her car tomorrow, I told her there was probably not going to be anywhere local where she could get that done but offered to do it for her tonight if she wanted. She was willing to let me but seemed a bit strange about it like she really didnt want me to. I know that acts of service are a big deal to her, but at the same time I also know that since I 'pushed' her into a lot of things when we were still living together and she has said she has trouble setting boundaries that it was quite a bad position to be in trying to push her into letting me do them.
We left the game in seperate cars and it had been decided I would do the brake job but I still felt pretty weird about it so on the drive home I sent her a text telling her that while i'd be happy to do it I didnt want her to feel pressured to let me and it was completely up to her. Well I got a really nice text back saying she would really appreciate it if I did them b/c it would make her feel much safer in her car if they were done, but I know that my S11 sent the text b/c at the end he told me he was typing for her. I think he must have had her phone texting his new girlfriend when I sent the text to her and he probably read it to her and she told him what to respond, but I have a feeling part of her response was because he had seen the text I sent and if she had told me know she would have had to explain to him why. I know thats alot of mind reading there and I've really gotta get better about just taking things as they are, but she tends to be emotionally dishonest especially if he is involved in any way.
I will say that I finished and took her car back to her and I had told her before that I wouldnt bother her since it might be late and i'd simply park it in the garage and leave the keys in it so thats what I did and just left. The light was still on in the master bath so I knew she was up but she was probably in the tub....she usually relaxes in there on Saturday nights...so I get back to my house and actually got a nice text thanking me for doing that for her and telling me goodnight. Guess i'll take that at face value and go to bed considering this a good evening
