On some level (he!! maybe all levels) I'm still waiting.
I still have hope.
I want to detach and just move on. I don't want to pine for her any longer.
But here I sit. Still having feelings for her.
How does one balance hope and detachment?
Reading a common theme in many threads, it appears that after the LBS gives up, the WAS often has a change of heart.
Has anyone R without giving up?
Why shouldn't I give up? Why can't I?
Sure it is a choice. A choice I'm currently just unwilling to make.
There is no nastiness going on between us. No love either. Just two people who have a kid. (A great kid that starts K this week. He is so fired up.)
Limbo. That is where I find myself these days. I'v read about it and now I'm here.
No ups or downs really. The roller coaster has settled down for the time being.
Despite how this post may sound, I think I'm moving further along the personal journey. I'm feeling more at peace. Just living my life most of the time.
