MLC with depression....double the fun!

[albamarie]

without discussing his intention with me it leaves him an out, there is no real commitment made, no road paved to stay on track.

Tonight he's already telling me he has a good family...so he should have gotten what"s owed him in life, he's opportunities have been taken away, and, don't expect him to be anything like he was.

Well right from the horses mouth I'm getting an unhealthy, unrealistic, spew of how "my" life is going to be with him in it, "what you see is what you get".

Also, he just said he's surprised how I seem to handle his anger (though he says he's not giving me the bulk of it).

This is a form of control-he can't control anything in his life, but home is his for the taking. Isn't that a form of manipulation?

Arrogance showed it's head also tonight, I'm to tired to explain how, don't really GOS because I am smarter now.

Regardless of what he's doing, I'm going to do me...move ahead and try to get my mind and body out of his way. I'm not as fooled or gullible as before, not as needy, not even shedding a tear.

I told him he knows we're I live if he want's to come to me....he laughed because were in the same house, not same life, world, universe.

He can call it whatever he want's, but I will have the say as to who I will be in a r with, and where I am going in my life, on my terms in the end. There's room for him, I'll continue to be kinds and understanding, maybe one day he'll come to me with a real attempt that suits both our needs.