Can Turtles climb?

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So i'm thinking about climbing the emotional ladder, and wondered if the Turtles can climb with me too...

or should I say - they are climbing and I need to follow...

okay so I had a rather interesting horoscope this morning that really got me thinking...

Instead of begrudging a rival's success, research how s/he made it happen. What worked for this person can work for you.


so my first reaction is - well that's poop - I can't even begin to think of anyone who may be a rival in my life, I don't have any rivals.

took me a couple of mins as I sat there thinking about who could possibly be a rival - yeah, i know - slow on the uptake

and so then the brain started working and to make a long story short - I think i may see for the first time, what h gets from his r with ow that he doesn't get from me

leading - he gets to lead that relationship - emotionally, physically and mentally.

I know I'm on the right track here - it felt like such an aha moment, that i feel i hit the nail on the head. i can suddenly see how much leading i have done during our m as well as during this last year.

and so i finally figured out what doesn't work. now i just have to figure out how to turn that around for myself

the ironic thing is i never wanted to be the leader in the first place - i feel that i got it placed on me, because h didn't know how to or because of his own issues won't step up

don't get me wrong - i think it's more the LACK of feeling any concrete presence in the r - because of his own reluctance to do so, that created the sense of powerlessness within h in our situation.

and i took over the fixer role so there was some semblance of order...

so a vicious circle - that compounded itself - and still is.

now it's time for me to figure out how to break the pattern and do something different. i suddenly also see how i possibly may have laid the groundwork for that over the last few months - sort of bringing the horse to the water - but now it's time for him to take the step to drink as it were - and for me to really step back and figure out how to bring this into balance.

there i go again - trying to fix the situation.

but very interesting info -as KD always points out.

it still doesn't change where i'm at , as he says - still have to make a full life for myself regardless. but it's food for thought....