MLC with depression....double the fun!

[albamarie]

my H just left for work informing me that he is trying to "come home" and there is some sort of taking care of the house that he needs to do to begin his journey.

But, as he begins to clean and fix things around here it brings him back to his anger, about loosing the house we were building, and how we out grew this one.

my goodness one would think we lived in a hut, on a hill, in bff, listening to him. He clinched his fists and said he is just revealing a small amount of the anger within.

He said his anger is not towards any of us, he will use it towards work in order to push on.

During this I stayed very quiet...didn't feed him any words for him to spew back at me. He smoked his cigarette outside, calmed himself down, washed up and kissed me good by.

I didn't even know he was trying to "come home". He didn't say anything...what is he coming home too. Kids that last time they spoke it was in an argument.

Me, the one he has not made any effort to discuss our future with. Or, the me that wants feel there is a hint of my H in there...hear an apology, a plan to make things better, is the EA really over, do you love me, trust, my goodness I can go on and on.....

this is not a start, this is one of his setting himself up to fail bad plans and he's putting me in the middle. I never agreed to "trying" try what...nothing is fixed, different, even talked about.

i feel like a mirage is in the horizon and he's going to put all his effort into reaching it, only to say "well, see I tried, nothing worked"!

i feel like i need to nip this, say something, nudge him toward a more realistic, healthy approach to being with his family, so that the 'family" may actually have a say as to what we all expect, need, want...

I find this very arrogant of him, manipulative even!