Bklyn Still Here P2

[BklynMom]

Thks labug - I sometimes pretend I am going to turn this trauma into a stand up routine ala 25.

Most days are going great. I am back to work until December. Girls are getting ready for a busy fall schedule. It will be hard for them because I will be working more but I am making sure to make it as easy as possible for all of us.

I will have someone clean the house for me once a week. The babysitter will make dinners for the weekends too. When in doubt I will take the simplier path.

Today was a bit hard emotionally. H has the girls for the weekend after they have been with me for almost 2 weeks. Its hard saying bye to my babies even if I know they are safe and okay and with each other, there is just something about it that gets me.

I think I am also a little fragile because I have been reflecting that Labor Day (or 2 days after) was the last time I yelled or fought in any way with my H. Its been 1 yr of serious DBing and thus far it has not brought us closer to R.

Bums me out.

I remind myself, that faith is believing in something that you cant see or prove.

I have faith that DBing and all my self improvement stuff is working...............

BUT damn it I need results now!! ugh!!