I think I see the picnic!

[2chiquitos]

Thanks SAIS- sometimes I feel like I should have progressed more in my sitch. I should've detached already. I should've stopped the urge to want to snoop. I understand that everyone goes through it differently but right now I'm frustrated with myself.

THanks RoRoinMD- I've got to look up your thread to know what you've been up to these last few days. If you're like me, you've been getting yourself into trouble too.

As for fear...
What am I afraid of? I need to think about it more because I can't answer that just yet.

Also,
Today I had a thought, a feeling. I don't think H wants to come back. I think he hasn't told me he doesn't want to come back because he knows that I will ask him to stop coming over in the mornings. He can see the kids everyday after work but not in the mornings. I had told him that if and when he decides he doesn't want to come back, these will be the new arrangements.

He had a really difficult time with this when I brought it up back in June. However once in a while (very seldom compared to before), he will talk about our sitch as long term. I'm getting the feeling as if he is just holding back his plans because he's afraid of the consequences.

Well this is just a thought (or feeling) and I don't intend to confront him about it. My sitch is very mellow right now and I am also benefiting from this serenity.