I haven't really posted much lately about my sitch or my feelings towards it, been focusing on me since I managed to finally detach.

I didn't want to post anything because I wanted to see if my feelings would change over the last month or so.

I've posted many times stating what I would need my w to do to show that she was commited to working on our M, but the way I've been feeling lately I don't know if that would make me want to work on the M.

The longer this situation drags on of us basically being co-parenting roommates with our issues brushed under the carpet, more damage is being done to the floor (foundations of our relationship).

The pedestal that I held my w upon has been taken down, smashed and burnt.

I have come to terms with the versions of why our R was in a bad state and take full ownership of my failings.

I was prepared to forgive and to try and move on from my W's PA / EA.

What I can't forgive my W for is this continual lack of respect for me and her M vows, by continuing to maintain contact with the OM by dancing with him. She knows exactly how I feel about the situation and yet continues to disrespect me every Friday night.

To me it is clearer now than it ever has been, she has made her choice.

I have made my choice, to work and work and work on ME.

I'm in no rush to file or move out because of financial reasons and I love being with my kids.


I've got my teacher training, my kids, my family, my friends , my fitness, my GAL activities.

My life is full of good things and good people, I might have lost the love of my wife but I've found ME again smile

Bill


Me 34 W 32
D 9 S 6
M: 9 years
T: 12
Bomb: 02/11/12
EA/PA: 12/17/11 - ongoing
Moved out: Oct 2012
Joint Filed for D: 2/11/13

Don't just GAL, find yourself and be happy