I haven't really posted much lately about my sitch or my feelings towards it, been focusing on me since I managed to finally detach.
I didn't want to post anything because I wanted to see if my feelings would change over the last month or so.
I've posted many times stating what I would need my w to do to show that she was commited to working on our M, but the way I've been feeling lately I don't know if that would make me want to work on the M.
The longer this situation drags on of us basically being co-parenting roommates with our issues brushed under the carpet, more damage is being done to the floor (foundations of our relationship).
The pedestal that I held my w upon has been taken down, smashed and burnt.
I have come to terms with the versions of why our R was in a bad state and take full ownership of my failings.
I was prepared to forgive and to try and move on from my W's PA / EA.
What I can't forgive my W for is this continual lack of respect for me and her M vows, by continuing to maintain contact with the OM by dancing with him. She knows exactly how I feel about the situation and yet continues to disrespect me every Friday night.
To me it is clearer now than it ever has been, she has made her choice.
I have made my choice, to work and work and work on ME.
I'm in no rush to file or move out because of financial reasons and I love being with my kids.
I've got my teacher training, my kids, my family, my friends , my fitness, my GAL activities.
My life is full of good things and good people, I might have lost the love of my wife but I've found ME again
Bill
Me 34 W 32 D 9 S 6 M: 9 years T: 12 Bomb: 02/11/12 EA/PA: 12/17/11 - ongoing Moved out: Oct 2012 Joint Filed for D: 2/11/13