I need to do the same. But there are so many holes either in his memory or the story. Maybe that I just can't even understand how/why he did what he did. So, maybe it will never make sense.
I try really hard to not bring it up. That is why I was asking about the brain/chemical thing.
I have a "friend" who seems to like to remind me of OW and of any sightings of OW. I really don't care and also- I wouldn't know her if I saw her. I need a break from this"friend"
I do feel like I am hyper aware about whether or not he is looking at other women, etc. This is dumb. I never did this before and now I find myself doing it now. It has been hard for me lately to be a "women only a fool would leave" THings seem to be surfacing.
I am rambling and in a rush but will write more later.
