My H is bored being home now that work has slowed down... his approach is different then anger or depression this time. He is reaching out to my D18 for attention. Being playful, making pancakes, laughing - it's a nice change - making it easier for me to live in this house.

H noticed (5wks later) the new cement work I had done on the side of the house. He complimented a job well done...to my surprise...while continuing to comment on his delight about my new car, job prospect, and work with the kids.

I have to say this is reminiscent of my H (the man I knew) mixed in with this new guy...I don't really like.

We don't talk about our R, M, nothing heaving about us. He has not mentioned moving out, D idea, being alone, none of that baggage of the last 15 months.

He calles it his limbo stage....directionless...but still stable here at home with "his" family that nobody can take away from him, "the one thing'' in his life, "they" can't take.

I have to say this is kinda getting to me...I hate limbo...I'm proactive...what is there to be in LIMBO about. Life is here...everyday...live man, live!

How long can I hold on to a R without love, affection, attention, fun, romance, commitment, all those things that help you feel good about yourself, those feelings of anticipation.

I'm bored of this....I'm bored with being the nice guys so I don't rock the unstable guy in the room.

The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!