but don't get on a high about it - yeah i'm relentless!!
no seriously - that's my pattern too, get high about how good i'm doing and then periodically crash and spin.
so pace yourself. and it's not time yet to stop reading that list - you're only on day 2!!
and you are going to still need the slaps, ice and physical exercise.
mac - i'm still not hearing you STATE your commitment here in writing.
look - i'm going to be brutally honest here.
If the way you function and respond on this board is ANY indication of the way you function in life - you have some stuff to work on within yourself. If i lived with you and you responded as you do here - I would be very frustrated and eventually very resentful
That last post of yours - when i read it - my reaction was - unbelievable - he's sending me off to read another post about the past. there was no acknowledgement that you had read anything i had written yesterday AT ALL!!
I just about gave up and left your thread. but you're so charming that i was like - well one more try - maybe there's indication in what you linked
and i get really surprised because it's your new thread. you almost lost me there
so mac - it's time to sit down and look in the mirror and start to figure out - how do you really respond to the people around you. try to be on the other side and see what they see.
i've been doing that - and for myself the pic is not so pretty. it's hard to face stuff about ourselves - and so what we do to avoid that - is to focus on what others are doing.
this transition takes a while, and when it's too painful we slip and start focusing on others again
brutal reality? it's about this.
so when you take a break from reading - go work on your goals list - it's got lost somewhere in the last few days, keep reading what you printed out every 20 mins and bring that goals list on to here so we can refine it.
think of the next few days as a serious spa visit where you clean yourself inside and come out a little rejuvenated on the other side
i'll check in periodically okay?
you are doing great - awareness IS the first step.
i know it's hard - so we all know what you are going through
((((((((( ))))))))))))))
zig
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"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
