Time for bed.... At least I still get to sleep next to this beautiful amazing lady...
Give yourself a chance. If she's cuckholding you currently, you have to look at yourself for what you are. A great guy who deserves a woman who really appreciates him.
Alot of your energy and ambition is currently held back and being taken advantage of worrying about her every move. If you did want a chance to lay with a lady as "beautiful and amazing" as your own wife, you could not even look at her that way.
