You could be right.

So let me ask you this...

What would you PREFER was his reason? Even though you know it is HIS reason and does not matter for you... what would you prefer?

And why?

Then, figure out how to have that simply be information that you KNOW that YOU CONTRIVED so that it fits into what serves you.

Have no expectations around that thought.

And continue to work on yourself and move forward...

It is OK and NORMAL to have those thoughts. Just be sure that if you feel you MUST have those thoughts... that they do not consume you nor affect your path...