I not really in a good place right now. Moving forward is difficult. If it were not for our S I think I would be in much worse shape. I do hug him every day. I went back and re-read the list I wrote about keeping the road home paved and smooth. I having trouble with the self respect. Forgiveness and compassion and hard to find.
How do I be the better choice? I'm finding it hard to find happiness, especially around him. I just have sadness, happiness I show my son seems forced. I do have flashes but nothing lasting right now.
Busting - Thanks for the lesson in compassion. I'm trying, I really am. He really isn't the man I fell in love with, the OW has that man right now I guess. I guess he is in crisis, but does he know it? He doesn't or won't admit it. He definitely knows he is angry.
lillystillinlove M:43 H:49 T:17 M:16 S:6 Bomb: 1/27/12 EA+ with close married family friend / ILYBINILWY H moved out 7/27/12 H is Extremely angry, stressed and unable to forgive
