Why am I so willing to believe him. To trust him when he says the phone isn't his or that he won't date or see anyone during this time. That he's not in contact with her. I caught myself just now thinking, "well you really don't have proof" but what else could it be. It's not 100%, I'm suspicious and it takes time for me to believing him more than not, but I always do. Why am I afraid to ask for the proof of communication the OW's H has. How many more times can I let my heart be broken. How many more times can I believe him. Why is it so hard for me to believe he is capable of this evil? How can I still love him and want to be with him? Is there something wrong with me? I know it's not all for our S, but I know that if it were not for our S, I would have left. I would be having all the same feelings but I would have left. How pathetic am I?
lillystillinlove M:43 H:49 T:17 M:16 S:6 Bomb: 1/27/12 EA+ with close married family friend / ILYBINILWY H moved out 7/27/12 H is Extremely angry, stressed and unable to forgive
