i still don't know if you are reading that list every 20 mins. i still don't know if you've committed to doing that.
it's not enough to state it casually - you have to be determined and emphatic about it.
when you found out that w had been to L - did you go straight to your list and do those things first?
because if you had, then you would have calmed down and your post would have been entirely different.
do you get the point? it's okay to post about what is happening - but your state of mind when you do it - that's what we are trying to help you to change (and that's what everyone is trying to help every one else change, including me)
it's a non-stop endeavor for a long time - and each time you do it - you'll get a little better at it. realize that now.
i'm still waiting for your commitment!
now, instead of focusing on what your w did - go back and read my first post about this all the way to his one again
the first day is bl**dy hard - but you'll push through it.
i would like to see you come post here every hour on the hour and be able to state that you read that list 3 times each hour, and DID it each time you needed to
i'm giving my commitment to check in every hour today!!
we'll start the hour at the time you write back ok?
zig
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"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
