I was just driving around aimlessly last night and decided to go see if H was home from business trip yet.
He turned up the street towards "our" house as I was waiting to make the same turn from the opposite direction - freaky timing! So I knew he was home...
He invited me in and we had a long chat. It didn't seem to be going well for me - more of him being messed up and not wanting to hurt OW.
He kept talking about her being so loving and supportive during this period and all I can think is "If only you'd give ME a chance to be loving and supportive" and "nvm her, I'm your wife". Kept those to myself.
The night ended with more of our "playing with fire" behavior. Which led to me leaving, in tears, and another late night phone call to say we can't do that anymore...
We've agreed to n/c until I've seen my C next week. He'll be going away for a couple of days to let his emotions and feelings settle a bit. It's gonna be a LONG weekend!
