Zig, if you wish to get a bigger gun, that is OK. I will support you.
shite KD - when you write stuff like that - I KNOW somethings up.
okay, i do believe i'm getting a bit overwhelmed by this whole sitch - which is a damned good sign that i haven't figured out what to do.
i'm more than happy to let it go - completely -but what's making me hesitate here?
the following -
if i let it go, am i doing more of the same? (don't forget - through the whole marriage i told myself let it go, there's no point)
this is NOT with intention to "preserve" the relationship. this is with intention to figure out where i stand as a parent for s.
my IC asked me a very interesting question today. she said - you are obviously the leader in this relationship and more so now when you are DB'ing. when you are divorced what will you do with that role? what are you going to lead when there is no relationship to lead within.
wonder if there is a connection here?
am i trying to lead? trying to lead us down the path of better parenting?
my answer to her rather cockily i must admit, was I'll lead myself, i'll lead my own life..
what the hell did i mean by that?
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
