Hi guys, feeling much better about things today, thanks so much for your support. I cried again when I read your beautiful words. Unbelievable how total strangers across the world can mean such a lot to me. You are real people with your own problems and can still reach out to a total stranger. I have heard it said we are all connected and I guess we are.
DB coach said I am doing an excellent job DB'ing. She agrees that, because H has made no further attempts to create another life for himself, is mostly attentive to me (not affectionate) and there has been no further D talk or conflict, that he is in a place where he is reconsidering, but because he is a MLC male, he won't apologise or admit a mistake. We both agree he is waiting for me to fix everying because he doesn't know how to and still save face. He is so stubborn. UUrrggh! I am to continue doing what I am doing, but step up the non-sexual flirting and small acts of affection, and also try to initiate some social activities perhaps with other friends, which I have already started. Keep it fun, non threatening and patience, patience, patience. It will take time.
Mostly, she was concerned about me and how I was handling the stress and she discussed with me very compassionately, what I was doing to take care of myself. She said that the fact that I didn't want to talk about my problems with him the other day was probably a good thing, because it showed H that I have become an independant person who can manage my stresses and then return to a calm state of mind. Although she also suggested I should thank him for his concern and I am fine now. Good advice I feel.
Hope you guys are doing well, and maybe this will help you keep on your journeys also. I am feeling motivated again to keep working.
