New to DB

[hopefulinga]

We made it through the funeral. H and I sat together. I did cry through the service and afterwards. I know that H is in a lot of pain and also doesn't do well when I am upset. When he went to leave, he did actively hug me and let me hang on for a few seconds. He was leaving to go out of town for the day and I think he needed to get out of there for his own peace of mind.

The pastors said many things that I took to heart about trust and faith in the Lord. I am not a very religious person, but all of this made sense to me. They also talked about our paths in life already being set and that we had to trust the plan even if we didn't know it. These were words of guidance to get through difficult times. I was thankful that H and I could hear these words together.

Those words help to reinforce to me that I cannot change what is going on, only me. And that I can lead a new path in life. Detaching and being less clingy is still difficult for me, but I am trying my best.