can Turtles still stand?

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yeah well - i'm about done here.

he crossed the line at the mere suggestion that he could come to that party with ow and just put her in my face!!

interesting little thing about the crossing the line theme that came up 3 times yesterday.

I had my appointment with the hypnotherapist right after the mediators - we talked a long time and right at the end i said to him - you know i've watched this sitch and read about others sitches. i have developed this theory that the WAS doesn't cross this invisible line through this whole thing. that i have watched h, and he only takes it to a certain point - it's as if he's always aware that i have this certain limit and if he crosses it i will be done. i think that line is different for each couple but they are always aware.

then at lunch - h brought up that friend who had tried to pull me into the cult a few weeks ago - and got all fired up about it again. he said she's no friend of mine, and i wish that when i was really angry that week when you told me about it, i had called her and told her to f off. i said - oh so you don't consider her a friend anymore? (there's history here - i refused to hang out with her the year before BD - and it pissed him off because one day i finally said i don't want you and s going over there for dinner. he agreed but he was sooo angry with me)

so when i asked that, his reply was "no, she crossed the line and i'm done with her" i asked how did she cross the line and he said when she tried to pull you into that cult by deceiving you she crossed the line.

then he got quiet and said this most bizarre thing:" i guess i could say the same thing about you and me. when you crossed the line i was done with you"

I was DYING to ask him how i crossed the line. but my instinct came up big time and told me to STFU and leave it right there. let that thought stay in his head - he WILL think about how i crossed the line, and he will realize that i didn't cross any line - not before BD and not after.

and then of course later when i heard form mil about what he was considering about that party - the first thought that popped up in my head - he's crossed the line. enough! that's it for me!!

right now i am seriously considering letting him know that if he proceeds with intro'ing ow the way he is planning - he can expect no support form me from this point on.

BUT - i'm giving myself and the universe a chance to let things unfold on their own. me - 48 hr rule! the universe - has got my back and s's and will take care of things for us.

My Turtles Faith and Trust are permanently residing with me now - and they are not leaving anytime soon!! and I do believe Power, that i didn't even know existed, has come to visit!!

thanks KD - you are right - the cracks are very visible in the castle wall - but my back is solidly turned - towards me and my life!

thanks for the hug and the visit - i know you want to stay away , so this is extra special

btw - do we ever get to know how you are doing now - or are you going to keep that away from us too?

hope you are doing wonderfully

{{{{{{KD}}}}}}

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