I'm ok if we don't talk about it. It certainly won't be an enjoyable conversation and I don't want to go round in the same cycle of me being positive/her being negative and then she leaves with the situation the same as at the start of the discussion. I'd also like to have it, if it happens, somewhere other than our house!
How am I different now? Much more positive about trying things. More spontaneous. A lot more sociable. A better listener. Much more willing to let people sort themselves rather than trying to fix things for them. A lot thinner! Drinking less. The downside is I'm probably a bit less self assured than I was. I think that was one of the reasons I started smoking again. It provides me an excuse to leave anytime and also due to the stench probably makes people less willing to get close to me. I started on nicotine patches today. So far, so good...
