I had a Bucket List long before it was called that. (I did see the movie - it was good). I called it my TO DO BEFORE I DIE list. There were some books out about 10 years ago - 100 things to do before you die & similar books. Places to see before you die etc.
Anyway - call them goals. Call them Bucket List. I don't often even write them down. But I know what those things are. And I check on "How'm I doing" often. Keeps me focussed.
Mish - if it is overwhelming - just make a tiny goal. And break that down into tinier steps. And see if you can take one of the steps.
Example: Change the rut we're in.
Steps: 1. Write down things I'd like to see change. 2. Think about how I will approach Gabe 3. Ask Gabe if we can talk about things
Stuff like that. Just a small step. I believe you've already taken at least one.