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[ClingingToHope]

Excellent trip to Canada. As good as you can expect when you spend 30 hours in a car with an ADHD child.

D10 had fits every single day. A couple were quite bad. Still, to me I see progress.

She wore down my aunt though. She's 77 and although she was sad to see us go, I could tell D10 was getting to her.

D13 was the half happy child, half recluse. She had a lot of fun when hanging out with my aunt and two cousins. When we were back at my aunt's house, she headed upstairs to putz around on the computer or listen to her Ipod.

10 or 20 years from now I'm positive that all of the memories will be positive.

XW and Uncle Fester came up a few times. I made a joke out of the situation, it drew a laugh, but I probably shouldn't have done it. I didn't take anything to shave with and after 8 days I was pretty shaggy.

I never let my facial hair grow so the girls kept telling me to shave. The night we got back I asked D13 if I really didn't look good this way. She said no. I told her I was thinking of packing on 50 pounds so I'd be more attractive to XW. D13 laughed.

I know, I know, I shouldn't have said that. Joking about it is a positive step right?

I have a date. Even though it's highly unlikely anything long term can come out of my conversations with OKCupid 37, I asked her out -- by message -- while in Canada. She said yes. We have this big music festival over Labor Day weekend. D13 is going to watch D10 one night and I'm taking her to the festival.

I'm excited just to get out with someone new.

School starts for the girls tomorrow and for me on Thursday. It is really going to be a test to fit everything in. I went to counseling this morning and my therapist said I sounded more excited about life than she's seen me.

I said I'm really too busy right now to dwell on anything. No time.

I have to try to not be so busy though.