I saw H move his overnight bag from the back seat to the trunk. I walked over to the trunk with the intent of looking through the bag in front of him to discover tomorrow's/yesterday's clothes. I had that rush of energy I used to get when I snooped.
What did I discover? The clothes he was going to change into while hanging out with us! What is going on with me?? I thought I was past this!! Things are really really good!
Today H gave a great presentation to the faculty. It was a big deal. So I text him "I'm glad. we (the kids n I) are very proud of you. you are progressing really well at work and we will always be here to support you"
he responded "thanks! it was a big day for me. there was no way I was gonna come to work without spending time with you guys." He showed up really early to see us before going to work. It was a nice surprise.
But then I go and do that after his text this morning. why do I do this to myself?? why do I have the desire to mess it all up?
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017
