the state you are in, you need to pull back big time.
You are not exuding confidence here. So I doubt you are, over there. Back off and take a breath.
CALM DOWN and stop freaking. Get a grip. Pull yourself together.
You have a new job. You look good. Your w is still there and you both are still going to MC. These are good things.
Stay the course. Read the DR book AGAIN if you have to but you need to really really get it and let it sink in so these panicky feelings don't come so often.
If a woman said "I felt optimistic yesterday but today suddenly I feel despair and fear and panic" we'd chalk it up to hormones.
That might be it OR it might just be the roller coaster we told you, you are on.
YOU can get yourself off of it by stepping off. Relax. Be the better choice whether OM exists for real or not.
Be your best self. In the end that is all anyone can do.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
