Divorced.. #2

[Mrs D]

Hi Bond! First and foremost, I dont speak with the trainer any longer. I have deleted any form of contact with him. I no longer work out with him, or see him as a chiropractor.

Secondly, I deactivated my FB account (although I do get on once a week to see what my daughter is up to on hers - then I deactivate it again). He had huge issues with FB. That was actually where I started talking to the trainer about working out.

Thirdly, I do not speak or GAL with any friends that were not necessarily good people. Those that would ask me to go out all the time, those that I put before my family.

While I was at his place Sunday, some of the discussion was how could he trust me again? I told him I would be completely transparent with my phone, my computer - anything. He still has my passwords to email to this day. And to be honest with you Mr B - he has some type of software that he can read every text I have sent. I have nothing to hide.

I am home most of the time. He installed GPS on my phone before the divorce. Its still on my phone. He can aboslutely see where I am at all times if he really wanted too.

At the golf outing we were in this weekend, I stood around and spoke with my family and close friends most of the time. I watched my niece and fed her during prizes. I didnt go off to talk to anyone that he didnt know. I drank water... Before I would drink alot of beer!

My son comes first before anything. Not saying I didnt put him first before, but in all honesty - I wasnt as good of a mom as I am now? HAte to say that.

I think I have made alot of changes within myself the past four weeks. And they are good changes that in all honestly, I feel REALLY good about.

I asked him the other day if he would just date me - let me show him that I can be trusted again. Let me make him a priority - but its still too soon. Maybe in a couple months I should try again, I dont know.