Ok, im going to journal a bit and be as upbeat as I can without getting my hopes up. Here is what is good about my sitch currently....there has been no movement or talk about D.
My SS16 spoke to me for the first time last week since this whole ordeal began.
My SS16 and S11 have always gotten on and off of the school bus at my parents house, but SS16 really dislikes my mother and hasn't wanted to be there at all, but this morning on day 2 of school he was dropped off along with S11 to wait on the bus and my mother called and said he was a bit distant but said I love you when he left.

My dad apparently spoke to my wife this morning, im sure it was mostly about his recent health problems b/c she's an Rn, but regardless my wife respects my father more than anyone in my family and if she thinks this is hurting him it will at least cause her to think about things.

And finally she sat outside yesterday evening the entire time that we had our football practice at our house. For those that dont know I coach S11's team and we practice at our house b/c we have the space...anyway, she's been sitting inside each practice and not outside watching like she used to, but last night she sat outside the entire time. She didnt come over to the practice field where she used to sit, but she was outside on the porch facing the practice the entire time.

Oh, forgot one more, she walked over on two different occasions to talk, neither time was it about me at all, one was to deliver a message and one because S11 had a bloody nose, but we at least interacted and I noticed that she was still wearing her wedding band. I'll admit i've looked every time i've been around her and its always been there. I know it probably shouldnt matter but it does on some level b/c apparently I care.

So thats my upbeat post for the day and im going to have a good day today...who is with me?

Also one question, since we've seperated i've noticed she doesn't wear her engagement ring, only the wedding band....is that some seperation signal that I dont know about or what? It may simply be her wanting to take off everything I have ever given her but not her wedding ring but I was just curious.


M:39 W:41
T:15 M:12
SS:16 S:11
WAW:6/15/12
JER. 29:11