WHG: And so we file...

[workinghardguy]

I thought some last night that I haven't posted much on what I'm doing Weekend was good. It was my weekend with my S so that's always good

I took him for lunch at a new restaurant that opened. I was a bit worried that he'd hate it, but he's fairly daring these days (for six) on food choices. It was a mongolian bbq style place and he LOVED it! Went back five times through the line It is now his new favorite place even before Chinese W was pretty surprised that S liked it when I dropped him of Monday morning and he was talking about it.

On Sunday we had a lay-led service at church and I led the service and did the "sermon". It was about the work I do and how to link social justice, housing, and land together. As Sunday School wasn't in session my S sat and watched. Afterward he told me that he really liked seeing dad up in front of everybody talking He thought it was cool that so many people actually listened to me

Afterward we stopped at the Food Co-op, got some healthy eats, and had an impromptu picnic atop one of the local bluffs.

It was one of those moments where I get torn... I wish we could have done that as a family, but when we were all together we never had the money to do that. Now we're apart and I do have the money. It's a Catch-22.

One other comment from last night's school event... it was a hard weekend even though it was fun. For some reason the whole sitch was really weighing on me a lot this past week. I think it's because, yet again, this weekend was another "event" that was part of the whole drama period last year where things started to really unwind. So knowing that W was up there with her guy-friend-person was hard. It was in photos from this event last year that I first noticed she didn't have her ring on. Anyway, our son's teacher did her presentation last night. The teacher seemed fairly nervous and jittery. I chalked it up to the fact that she usually talks in front of six year olds, not adults. But my STBX immediately didn't like her and was negative about her. The teacher wasn't cheery or smiling enough for STBX's tastes. But then I thought back to last year... well, she didn't like that teacher either at that teacher was very smiley and chipper... but there my STBX went to school with her and the teacher was always on the cheerleading squad while my STBX never was. And it's that negativity that drives me nuts and creates the angst in me.

Lately I've only been able to remember the good times my W and I had. It makes it even more challenging to resolve and let go. But this was a stark reminder of what I'm not missing right now. I was able to go home and let her go home and stew in her own negativity.