Going Dark; Not Sure I Have The Strength

[NASCARDaddy]

Well I guess this counts as a small success. Today my W called me to let me know that they had something going on Thursday night (which I knew about) and to ask me if there was another night that I could have the kids over. It was actually a pleasant conversation which was a nice change from the ugliness earlier in the week.

[chatterbug]

Well I did file a statement opposing her motion with the court where I stated that what she said was false and requested a hearing on her motion. When we go before the judge I am going to request leniency for her because nobody benefits from her going to jail for six months or having to pay a $1000 fine. Instead I am going to ask the court to mandate that she seek IC so that she can work through the issues that she is not dealing with and that the court monitor it as a sort of modified form of probation.

Strange .... Eh.

She comes at you with guns blazing.... Then You stand up for yourself.

Then next day she is all nice.



Must be something there...


Something.... Attractive...

[NASCARDaddy]

I sure hope so. The loneliness is killing me. Even when I am with people I feel alone because none of my friends have ever gone through anything like this so they can tell me how sorry they are and how much they sympathize with me, but they can never really understand how I feel inside.

[chatterbug]

It is good learn about a good friend of yours. Yourself.

P.S. Do not seek sympathy from your friends. It is a cheeseless tunnel.

Your friends are there to call you out on your B.S. and to listen.

And when you drum on and on about your stitch. To say. Shut it.



Mind you I think it is interesting that at 39 you have no friends who separated.

[NASCARDaddy]

Mind you I think it is interesting that at 39 you have no friends who separated.

Nope, I have a few friends who's parents separated but none who have gone through it themselves.

[DaddyLongShanks]

I sure hope so. The loneliness is killing me. Even when I am with people I feel alone because none of my friends have ever gone through anything like this so they can tell me how sorry they are and how much they sympathize with me, but they can never really understand how I feel inside.

Don't seek that sympathy from any "friends", I wouldn't relay any of this information. If you NEED to talk, talk to a cou counselor, a deacon or preacher.

I would not give this information to ANY friend or family member, while you are looking for a positive statement. It doesn't work.

[NASCARDaddy]

The first day of the new job was not all I had expected it to be. Six hours of filling out paperwork was just fertile breeding ground for negative thoughts and self recrimination. I ended up feeling pretty down by the end of work and wishing that there were some way that things could be different. This roller coaster of emotions can be very exhausting is really making me crazy.

[JustStunned]

Yes it can be exhausting and can make you crazy. At the risk of being insensitive, what are you doing about it?

[NASCARDaddy]

Praying, seeking therapy, and trying to GAL like crazy.

[JustStunned]

If you believe you are doing all that you can do, then reach back find your aplomb and ride it out. Prior military, right?

Observe, evaluate and adjust as needed. There is no perfect 100% plan. 70 is about the best we can do as no plan survives contact, and you are already engaged.