I know we get sick of hearing this but it is the gift of time. For me it allowed me to work on issues that I would not have done without the impetus of the BD.
Overall, I'm much happier now than I was before the BD. Do I miss H? YES, but somethings can't be changed by me. I can only control me and it's so much easier not to have to worry about another adult.
Keep working on you and things will become easier.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss